The Dawn

I was waiting for the dawn,

the sunshine, the rainbows....

and waiting for the night to end....

Wasnt crying or whining.....

Just standing tall, trying not to bend...

I was strong... have always been....

And thats what I was then....

"This would pass and light will shine..

and the world will accept you again.."

I was telling myself, while standing in the cold

dark night, over and over again....

And then it suddenly struck me,

What am I waiting for?

When i have the power within me..

Standing is what i have been doing..

and doing it all wrong..

and the night is growing

ever more strong....

No, the dawn will not come..

No, the night will not end...

and this will not pass..

It will stay as it is...

Until you know that you are the sun..

and you have to shine...

and burn yourself..

To bring on the light...

The world will love you

and want you....

When.............

it doesnt really matter for you again..

But some are destined to bathe in the light

and some are destined to burn and give out light...

But irony is that both are unhappy...

and want to switch places again........

If only they would know.....

What they have is the best..

and they dont have to look

anywhere else...

But such is life...

and so is destiny..

unpredictable and unsatisfying in the end..............

Blissful state

Bliss all around you, while you enjoy the freshness of the blue sky and the green grass, sipping hot coffee sitting next to the love of your life, in your very own abode, situated in the state of Utopia... Thats how I feel right now !!

Dreams !!!

I live in dreams...
Yes, I live in dreams..
my dreams..

It has to be a dream
for what else could be so beautiful,
so magnificent, so happy,
so secure, so comfortable...
I know it is my dream
coz this is what I always dreamt of..
Life should be beautiful,
I dont have to worry,
I dont have to cry,
All my tears are smiles,
All me fears are gone.
I am not alone..
I am protected, guided by an angel..
An angel who is my companion..
My friend,my guide..

I open my eyes yet I feel I am dreaming,
Am i ??
I still feel the comfort of some one being with me
each moment, each second,
as if he is right here, inside me..
moving in my veins..
I feel his presence with every breath..
What is this?
I have never felt this before..
I pinch myself, no use...
Oh Lord !! This feeling does not go away...
I look upto HIM ,
and ask " Am I finally blessed??
Have you really given me what I wished for soo long...
Have you really sent me an angel.. ? "
I dont know what his reply is,
but I still feel overjoyed...

Thank you Lord.. is all I say..
and try to pinch myself once more..
But it still doesnt go away...
May be its here to stay...

Flight Of Heart (My creation !!!)

Lessons Of Life !!

"Life keeps on repeating its lessons onto you, until you learn from them",
Most of the time....... we dont learn, coz we dont want to, coz we are scared
to realize the real truths of life, but the irony is......
LIFE is like this... and it will remain like this...
you cant run from it, you cant hide from it...
u have to,u have to,and u have to...
learn what LIFE wants to teach u...
The sooner you learn, the less it punishes you, coz each successive
trial that LIFE makes to make you learn, is harder than the last...

नदी

क्या नियति होती है , इस नदी की ..... हंसती, गाती, खिलखिलाती, नाचती , कूदती, ख़ुद में मग्न, गौरवमयी व्यक्तित्व की स्वामिनी, कितने ही राहगीरों को तृप्त, आनंदित व प्रेरित करती, निरंतर चलती रहती है..... उस मंजिल को पाने की चाह लिए, जिससे मिलने का ख़याल ही उसके उर को सम्पूर्णता का एहसास कराता है, और वो भविष्य की इस कल्पना में खोकर और भी आह्लादित हो उठती है, व और भी अधिक वेग से आगे बढ़ने लगती है ।

सागर से मिलन की चाह , वो मिलन के सुखद स्वप्न इतने आनंददायक होते हैं क वो राह में मिलने वाली सारी पीड़ा , सारे कष्टों को भूलती नही , उनका एहसास ही नही कर पाती....

सारी खाइयों ,खंदकों उतार चढ़ाव को पार करती, वो सम्पूर्णता की तलाश में अत्यन्त वेग से आगे बढ़ती जाती । जाने कितनों की तो नैय्या वो अनजाने में ही पार लगा देती है,और ये सब वो जाने भी तो कैसे , उसका ह्रदय तो कहीं और है ..... उसके जीवन का एक एक पल , उसकी हर साँस ... उसका सर्वस्व, हाँ सर्वस्व तो बस सागर ही है , वही सागर जिससे मिलने के लिए वो अब तक जीती आई है , वह सागर जिसके पास खजाना है , प्रेम व सम्पूर्णता का ... जिससे मिलने के बाद वो ..... क्या कोई बयान कर सकता है उस एहसास को जो उस मिलन के बाद होगा ? नही... कभी नही

फ़िर वो दिन भी आता है जब उससे अपनी मंजिल दिखने लगती है .........उफ़ उस मंजिल की एक झलक पाते ही अजीब सी घबराहट , उसके तेज़ वेग वाले क़दमों को बाँधने लगती है ..... दिल कहता दौड़ चल पिया के पास, पर हिम्मत जवाब दे देती है .... कहीं रूठ गए तो ? ... इतने इंतज़ार के बाद तो दर्शन दिए हैं .... कहीं कुछ गलती हो गई तो ... नही, नही ,वो ऐसा कभी नही कर सकती , कभी नही । वो बहुत धीमी - धीमी गति से, अपनी मंजिल को पाने की चाह लिए, लज्जाती हुई,घबराहट को बांधती हुई .... हजारों बातें सोचती हुई, अपने हर विचार व मूल्य को अपने आने वाले जीवन की अनुरूप ढालती हुई .... अंततः जा पहुँचती है अपनी मंजिल तक... अपने सागर तक, अपने ख्वाब तक ...

.... वो सम्पूर्णता का एहसास इतना सुकून भरा होता है की वो भूल जाती है अपना सर्वस्व और विलीन कर लेती है ख़ुद को उस सागर में , उसकी संगिनी बनने के लिए ढाल लेती है अपने हर अंश को , अपने हर कतरे को , न्योछावर कर देती है अपने अस्तित्व को उस मंजिल, उस सागर पर जिसने उससे उसका सब कुछ , उसकी सम्पूर्णता दी.....

"A gift from a very special friend..."

"Just u n me...
a drive down the sloping road...
drizzling the best romance ever....
the music touching the cords off the heavens...
let the gods know....
that we are made for each other...
make them write we are one....
let the blessings pour like the closeness 4 ever...
may the breeze bless...
never to be parted...
may we live like this 4 ever... :) "

-Shilpa (a very sweet person :)... thanks a trillion fr such a wonderful gift "

LoVe......... !!!

Love is just like life...........
When you enter in it..................
You experience ecstasy........
You enjoy each and every moment ,but.........
You are scared that it all wud not be there one day...........
And one day it goes away.........
Then u feel wretched......
But what you neva realise is that these two things........
Love and Life........
Both neva end...........
Both remain within our hearts........
And in the hearts of those whom we loved....... and for whom we lived........!!!

The Darkness of LoVe......... !!!

Can u See the DaRkNeSs............ of LoVe........???

"V" stands for.............. "VENOMOUS".. !!!

To All Women ......... On Womens Day !!!

We cared for you................
You thought we were slaves................

We stood up...............
You thought we were rebellious..................

And now,
You dont allow us to enter the world.........


But still we LOVE you as we always did...........

For we are WOMEN!!!!!

HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY PPL.........!!!!

A Craving........ !!!

Loneliness, emptiness spread everywhere,
Each time I close my eyes,
Each time I sit to think,
Each time I come across a familiar sight,
Couples gazing without a blink,
What is it that I desire,
That I cant find anywhere?
Family, friends are always near,
yet my soul is quite far.
I crave for my soul
Why doesn’t it come back to me?
What is the fault that I have done
Something that can’t be forgiven?
I try to hide,
I try to run,
I try to laugh,
And be innocent
But all this is vain,
Nothing but pretence,
I’m trapped in my own image,
An image that looks like me,
But its not me,
For it laughs and dances
But I am filled with
Lonely trances,
Life is HELL
Without you,
Its black, just black,
Being the only hue.
I don’t wanna show my pain,
For what would I gain,
Except some people’s fake sympathy,
Which is nothing but empathy.
So,I pretend
To be satisfied and content,
But I’m fed up of hiding behind this covering,
It suffocates me,
It exceeds my limit of forbearing,
You and only you understand me,
Its only you who knows my reality,
Living without you,
Is one of life’s biggest brutalities,
I cry, I shriek, I bang my head.
But nothing just nothing happens
For my Destiny is dead.
Yes, its dead and I fail to understand,
Why am I alive,
Why, why ,why cant I die?
Why cant I die.
Lord almighty if you’re there
Please listen to my only prayer,
Either send my soul or
Call me up where,
Someday I can be reunited with him!!!