A Craving........ !!!

Loneliness, emptiness spread everywhere,
Each time I close my eyes,
Each time I sit to think,
Each time I come across a familiar sight,
Couples gazing without a blink,
What is it that I desire,
That I cant find anywhere?
Family, friends are always near,
yet my soul is quite far.
I crave for my soul
Why doesn’t it come back to me?
What is the fault that I have done
Something that can’t be forgiven?
I try to hide,
I try to run,
I try to laugh,
And be innocent
But all this is vain,
Nothing but pretence,
I’m trapped in my own image,
An image that looks like me,
But its not me,
For it laughs and dances
But I am filled with
Lonely trances,
Life is HELL
Without you,
Its black, just black,
Being the only hue.
I don’t wanna show my pain,
For what would I gain,
Except some people’s fake sympathy,
Which is nothing but empathy.
So,I pretend
To be satisfied and content,
But I’m fed up of hiding behind this covering,
It suffocates me,
It exceeds my limit of forbearing,
You and only you understand me,
Its only you who knows my reality,
Living without you,
Is one of life’s biggest brutalities,
I cry, I shriek, I bang my head.
But nothing just nothing happens
For my Destiny is dead.
Yes, its dead and I fail to understand,
Why am I alive,
Why, why ,why cant I die?
Why cant I die.
Lord almighty if you’re there
Please listen to my only prayer,
Either send my soul or
Call me up where,
Someday I can be reunited with him!!!